Mixed Emotions

Current Mood: Confused
Thinking of: him, naturally!

Sometimes, I find it hard to understand how my feelings work especially when it's about him.

There are inevitable moments when I miss him and I ache for him wanting to hold me, and it's fantasy about a thousand heartbeats with the wind blowing on my face as I float over to him on the highest of cloud nines; arousing retardedly "mooshy" poems, romantic songs and rose petals.

Then, there are those infuriating times where I feel like my heart's being pinched and I just wanna hold out that gnarly feeling by crushing him beneath me.

Yet again, there are those painful moments when I feel like a distance away from him and my heart's flown by the breeze.

Argh!

Well, this is how love works, huh? In this case, it's like a million kazillion questions that keep hovering over my mind.

I know, I'm not making sense again! Like I said, I AM THE STORY TELLER. BEAR WITH ME!

Anyway, I'm exhausted. These days have been rather wasted for me particularly today when I feel semi-irritated. My eyes are a little blurry and my whole body feels like a bag of marshmellows. hehe (He calls me that! What a coincidence!)

Ok! Not only my eyes seem blurry but it seems to be affecting my head, too! Well, it's all I can think up for now. Pardon my weirdness.

I'm just really tired, ok?

-signing off- 9.18 pm (Monday 6/02/06)