Closer to Heaven

Current Mood: Bored
Thinking Of: ...

Ok, I must admit,"...nothing compares to the first true love.." -song Don't forget about us by Mariah Carey-

Well...yesterday, I hadn't planned to talk to him. As "cold" as I struggled to act, I just couldn't resist him. Long the days gone by I often have this aching to feel his embrace,yet another part of me just wants to feel absolute disgust.

But then...*sigh*

I ended up hugging him instead.
Not that it's a bad thing or anything..just. I WAS really hurt, you know.

Anyway, that's the least of my problems now. There's plenty more issues circling around me. Everyday pretending like nothing's wrong with me. It sucks. It's like showing a mask to the world outside. It's no wonder I'm still pushing to find what's really me. Anyway, cut out with the laid-back gothicness persona. I'm just really grateful there's still a heavenly force by my side.

I feel like narrating my life. In a story perhaps. Anything.

I'm not making any sense, huh?

Anyway, I'm in school now, helping out with the school magazine. Helping,right! *hehe* Actually, I just wanna get away from the house and avoid bumming and become a real couch potato. Yeah. Of course, it's good to be at home once in a while. And with me leaving for good to the Philippines in April, I'm probably gonna miss being at home.

Yeah, second entry. Til the third!

Nyah.

-signing off- 11:07 am